Christian Evaluation

 

In your years as a Christian what do you appreciate most in Christ with regards to the following:

 

  1. Transformation of purpose and goals for living?

 

Knowing Christ changes my prerogative in life. He molds me in my struggles and challenges. I aspire to be one of his disciples someday. I knew him more in the book of Matthew, Luke, and John.  I admire him more every time our pastor and brothers speaks, rebuke and motivate us to be Christ-Like. Imagine watching marvel, I look up to God like a super hero. Not because he is sovereign but because He is a Servant-God.

 

I met God not in my baptismal day. I met him in my spiritual leader’s clinic.  Have you tried so hard to be good? You did your best in every aspect of your life because you once believed in good karma and luck?  You believed that doing good will leads to goodness and fortune. Then you became frustrated and broken of doing well yet everything turns out not the way you wanted.

 

My life changes when he proclaims Mathew 18: 21-22 to me through my spiritual leader. It was a life changing event in my life. I was like Paul in acts chapter 9 who was blind and now can see. I was full of frustration that I could not forgive. I am full of frustration of this world and mostly to people.  But God gave me the heart of forgiveness and that changes everything.

 

  1. Transformation of your thoughts and speech?

I dare to conclude that this world is not a better place. I strongly believed in Solomon when he wrote the book of Ecclesiastes.  We are chasing the wind that we cannot catch. It is all meaningless! But it taught me to trust the sovereign God in this uncertain world. I was taught to work hard, enjoy the gifts and blessings of our sovereign God.

Despite of life is meaningless and the world is such as deceitful place to live. I feel so blessed and rich inside! Indeed, God’s blessing is mysterious! It is one of a kind. It is priceless yet valuable! Through carrying my cross it produces perseverance.

I am not much of a talker. I am not confident. I am more preserved with my thoughts, feelings, and knowledge.  Sometimes I consider myself as an introvert person. Sometimes I see myself like Moses, never been eloquent in front of people.  Unlike Moses I aspire to be one! I envied those talented people who can really talk in front of crowd.

To add on, I am watchful also with my tongue and words. I strongly believed that the enemy is neither the circumstances nor the people around you. The enemy is you! And I have come to realized that a woman is more a talker.  There is an instinct of a woman who can gossip or slander more than a man. That is why I put everything to writings and journaling because I’m afraid if I talk proudly or too much  I might caught myself boasting ,gossiping and judging. I am not exposing my sin to anyone not because I am afraid of or being a hypocrite; I just don’t want people to compromise with my sin and follow it. I am trying my best to correct every wrong and to wake up each day to fight my inner self.  In this moment I am on the process of molding my Christ like character.

 

  1. Transformation of your behavior and conduct.

 

The walked with Christ is really not the straight path. It is in the narrow road.  Becoming a Christian is really a great struggle.  Why is it “Great struggle” ?  Using a word great in this sentence means taking struggle in positive mindset. Consider struggle as a blessing in disguise. Despite of difficulty and pain there is endurance and molding.  I’ve became so thankful not having the world but because of the priceless experience and valuable testimony.  I fear that one day he will give me the luxury of the world and might forget about him. So I prayed to God that if one day he let me prosper, let me be ready not to be deceived by the treasure of world and be eaten by my pride.  I never regret everything that happened to me for I know that there were good outcome out of all bad. What I mostly ask to God is strengthening  of my faith, giving me the character of being patient, loving, humble and kind. The world is too cruel and I believed people need someone like Christ.

 

I would like to share that I was in a great struggle that people judged me and mistreated me. But I thank the Lord with all my heart because I was able to identify the truth and the lies.  I was able to count the genuine people in my life. I was rebuke and in the process of sharpening or honing like a pot.

 

I am blessed not with the world but with difficulties and testing. It trained me to seek God more, praise God through rough times and he hones me.

In your reading this month, how did you see the glory of God in the face of Christ? Cite the Scripture.

I had an assignment to memorize this verse and in the process of memorizing there was a feeling of back flash from the start I was given the grace and filled by Holy Spirit. Every Chapter of my life he was there. He comforts me, strengthens me, guides me, and protects me. Every time I utter this verse, I was reminded that I am loved.

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
    He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
    he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.

 

How is your knowledge of the glory of Christ being translated in your involvement in the local church? Cite choices: Zone prayer meetings, age and gender groups, other ministry groups.

I was once joined the beginners class thought that this will be the first step of knowing him more and proclaiming his Excellency and love.  But unfortunately I am mostly absent due to my work (shifting of organization and schedule) and because that time I need to give way to some people.  I tried youth but I guess I want to have my age group of people.

Fortunately I still have my bible study, very helpful in communicating with people, taming myself and remembering to Love God above all. And most of all reminding me to be obedient and humble.  Praise God! Because I strongly believed that I’m on the right track. It is just me who needs a lot of molding and growing.

I would like to share this to you, rebuke me if you caught me judging other church.  I tried to visit some church. I visited Friday fellowship with my co-worker and the focused was the coming of Christ. There is the heresy and some prophesy. They introduced some prophets of these generations. I forgot the name.

Then one day I’m with my girlfriends joking with each other.  They were worried because the world is about to end and they haven’t found there one true love. There are signs now so I said to myself in fear “ bahala na wala koi lake basta ma save lang ko” .  So selfish!  Still I am so caught up with the discussion that the world is really about to end? I was really confused!

That time I was not aware that it was a wrong notion of belief. But when I became a Christian, then I finally belong to a local Church and I am consistent in my bible study I came to realized that I should not worry when will Christ will come.  What I mean about this, my salvation does not connect to the coming of Christ. My salvation is by Grace. I should not worry about what will happen, when it will happen because I wouldn’t know. Even if I will research the signs I wouldn’t know. I should focus on myself molding to be Christ-like by heart. That in matthew 24:36 “But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.

I would like to share this also that I was tested to leave and find a new church. But I said to myself “no”. I don’t care what people think about me, I went there not to please them but to praise my God. Yes I committed sin but that doesn’t mean I should stop going to church. I believed that I need healing and help. There is this someone who discouraged me to go to church and was asked to leave for good. I was deceived; I stopped my beginner’s class and skip church. And I woke up one day realizing it is not disrespectful not to leave. I knew my God and he knew my heart. He is that one person who knew the deepest truth of my heart. I should not be afraid what people think about me. He knew my motives and this I won’t give up. I am part of his body and no one can separate me to my father.

Are you committed to any ministry group in our local church? Why did you commit yourself in the group?

Treasuring Christ: Do you have any aspiration to serve the lord in our Local church? Which? Cite choices: P and W, Ushering, M and A, Mand D

For now, I think I have not committed to any ministry group. I tagged myself as a one of the Church goer.  One thing I am sure and won’t let go is my commitment to bible study.

I aspire to be with praise and worship because I love to praise him through songs.  I don’t have a nice voice but I love singing. Second option is usherette.

I also want to join the medical mission group since I studied nursing in college however I did not pursue it. I want to be useful is serving Christ. I would like to share my basic skill in medical mission. I tried medical mission before but again due to my schedule it is hard to join again.

So I would like to ask a prayer for everybody because again my enemy is myself and the time. Honestly speaking I have this lazy attitude especially when my schedule won’t meet half way.

I am confident to say that I am punctual: In our office and in Sunday Mass. But it is really true that when a punctual person caught herself late to a certain activity she will lose interest.  But I am training myself not to lose interest this time.

I was so excited about our discipleship because since I became a Christian,I want to share him to this world. To let them know about God. I want them to feel what I feel about him. The joy and the wisdom are overwhelming! But my enemy was the time but I’ll try on this.

Commitment to Christ: Have you shared our precious Christ to others? If yes, how many? If no, why?

Yes, yes! To some. Through writings, officemates , and to some people.

I have this blog and shared to them my meditations. I always make sure that this would be God’s focused and not for myself. I am very watchful that I may catch people in my own motives but not of God. I don’t expose my writings. I am not confident.

There was one time we went out with my officemate. We came to a different church and religion. We shared what we have learned in our Sunday church and bible study. Unfortunately it was stopped.

And sometimes on our way home with someone, when we have little or we’re in awe with God we go to places and meet people in the street telling them that we are just an instrument and share to them a little about Christ that we know. We feel we are useful in that sense and we fulfill our little ways as a toddler Christians.

 

P.S

There is a lot of work to be done with myself. I am aware of my sins and will work on it. This is my weakness; I have battles with my inner self and heart.  I had a hard time to search verses and memorize verse! I had a hard time praying in front of people. I had a hard time fighting for what I know in the bible. I haven’t read some chapter in the bible. Sometimes I lost my focus! I failed my day to day journaling. Sometimes I forgot to pray.  I thought I mastered anger management but there are times I failed. I was provoked to react instead to respond. I won’t deny that there is a lot of working to do in me.  So I ask a little favor to please include me in your prayers.

I am fighting battles.. But when God speaks through our pastor , he reminds me to have a positive mindset. ( I almost forgot about that, thank God to every sermon and opportunity to be in the church)

God reminds me not to complain and to be thankful. Not to judge and be humble. Remind him to love him and not to idolize the world and people.

Thank you Doc for this material; It is been an honor to answer this all. I was able to meditate and to go back to my memory lane. My heart jumps with joy and I felt so blessed in answering this. I was reminded that he gave me his Grace and it is the priceless gift.